definition.

i'm a scientist... so i like definitions. i like things that are nice and neat. that fit into a box. that have a formula. and a solution. that make sense. if a+b=c then c-b=a. and i like that. its predictable and unchanging. however, i follow a god who cannot be completely understood. he cannot be equated. or fit into a finite container. he is mysterious and wondrous.

can both these parts of me be reconciled? such is the journey i am on. if not, i know which will win out. the one that brings increasing joy even in sadness. the one who transforms. the one who looks past my rebellion and regenerates my heart. the one who will get ever increasing glory regardless if i choose him or not. whether i'm an object of mercy or an object of wrath. if i keep quiet, all of creation will cry out. he is the GOD of an infinite universe, why am i so preoccupied with defining him when he is defining me moment by moment, breath by breath.